I was asked a rather interesting question today."who was your first love?"I was stumped.The normal answer to the question would be Sharon,in the 5th grade.But then did i know what love was in the 5th grade?I possibly couldnt because i still think that i dont know what love is.This would mean one of 2 things :
a) I do not know what love is
or
b)I knew what it was but dont anymore.

I have basically gone through life dating and thats about it.Some a little longer than the others but the end result is the same.So that means I am 23 and I have never been in a relationship.However this is something that I do know for sure,I invariably end up falling for the wrong girl and the kind that end up falling for me are all wrong for me.

The kind i fall for are usually smart,good looking and multi faceted.However since i am a pretty good listener I end up in the "Friend" category and trust me there is nothing as irritating as that.Especially when you want to be anything but that.Oh and take my word for this....friend you might be and have stuck around for all the bad stuff but the moment a boyfriend comes to the picture you might as well as be non-existent.You are expendable so be ready to bite the bullet.

The kind that fall for me are smart,good looking and multifaceted :). However,the reason why I think they are wrong for me is because they sort of want attention 24/7 and am a busy guy .Plus I have some independence issues.But the thing is that for some reason within 3 dates I know that they are wrong for me.Very wrong.But since I am a bit of a chicken I find excuses to avoid them instead of just telling it like it is.

So now I am just as confused as I was when I started writing.Which my friends isnt all that uncommon is it? :)